I’m not even gonna lie… The past three days have felt like at least three weeks. Considering everything, Harper is once again doing amazingly well. She is back to talking and playing and being silly in between her meltdowns (aka the Keppra cries). Her appetite is up and down, her moods are swinging, and her sleep is restless at best, but we can see that personality that we so adore.
But, being sleep deprived and dealing with the screaming spells and watching her every breath and the constant worry has stress levels high around here. So, today, we decided to escape the confines of our house and venture outside. I’m a bit leery of public excursions still (crowds and germs and overstimulation and meltdowns, oh my!) so we drove to see Daddy.
As we were riding along, the girls were all quiet, Mommy was deep in thought, and the radio was playing softly in the background. It was oddly peaceful for our crew, and then I heard the sweetest little voice singing, “My help comes from you…” Apparently the song Shoulders by for King & Country was on, and Harper decided to sing along.
I can’t say for sure what Harper’s purpose is- why she has had to endure what she has or what her future holds. But I know that God uses her daily to remind me of Who He is, to direct my eyes back to Him, to show me that He is still there. Hearing her little voice singing out where her help comes from shifted my focus in that moment to the words in Psalm 121:
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth.
He will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that keepeth thee will not slumber.
Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord is thy keeper: the Lord is thy shade upon thy right hand.
The sun shall not smite thee by day, nor the moon by night.
The Lord shall preserve thee from all evil: he shall preserve thy soul.
The Lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in from this time forth, and even for evermore.
Friends, this world offers all kinds of help, and some of it is indeed beneficial. But our ultimate source of help for any and every situation big or small is God. He alone can meet our every need. He alone can sustain us. He is my keeper, He is my daughter’s keeper, and He is your keeper. Whatever you’re facing, lift your eyes unto the hills…