God had great plans through the whole experience, and He carried us on an unbelievable journey in the months that followed.  It was a painful, faith-testing, heart-wrenching, not-fun-at-all journey, but one in which He showed Himself in great and mighty ways.  The emotions of it all are still overwhelming, and today as we celebrate the miracle of Harper’s first birthday, it will be a day of reflecting and processing not just the joyful emotions, but also those painful ones.  We have already had our big celebration with the world, so today will be a day for this mommy to cherish her baby, to love on her and hold her and thank God for her… to savor those moments that I didn’t get to have one year ago, but that God has so graciously allowed me to have now.